The Shadow of the Shark
Wednesday, 1st April, 2020
It’s just 19 days
since I started this blog which started out as a way of processing the craziness
in the form of a diary. I seem to have swerved wildly off the road in terms of
diary writing, (usually when I’ve spotted a fat white blasé politician bouncing
along in the undergrowth) but maybe now it’s time to bring it back.
I don’t know about
you but I feel we’ve moved into the third stage of this thing. If Stage 1 was Watching
the Shadow make its way across the globe in our direction, and Stage 2 was Losing
Control then I think Stage 3 is The New Abnormal. I know I used this
phrase before to describe how we’ve started doing normal things differently or
with a new sense of paranoia but The New Abnormal has now become our everyday
reality.
Here, in my
household, we’re all either working or studying at home, mostly matching the
usual working hours, although for me as a teacher, it might be the first time
ever I’ve worked something approaching a 37 hour week (instead of 50 – 60 hours
average). However, take away the travel to and from work, the distractions of
working with other people, and taking away meetings/training and all that jazz,
then a slimmed down work day is, from my perspective, rather chilled.
Yes, it might be
more difficult managing a 6-foot teenager who is avoiding doing the school work
for the subjects he dislikes but because both his parents are key-workers we are
threatening to send him into school. As I keep telling him (truthfully), I have
showered with his headteacher at the hot yoga studio so have a more intimate
relationship with ‘Sir’ than he realises.
But the New
Abnormal is more than adjusting to everyone ‘working’ from home. It’s when you
start to enjoy aspects of your new life, in preference to your old one. You’d
be a serious petrol-head if you were missing all the cars on the road. Isn’t it
great walking along by the road and hardly seeing any traffic? And isn’t it
exciting when you do get in the car? Even if you’re only going to the
supermarket, it feels a bit racy to be ‘out.’
‘Come on, copper,
stop me if you dare; I’ve got a shopping list and some Bags for Life if you
want to search my car.’
The New Abnormal is
also that smile you give someone as they swerve wildly but politely off the
footpath to keep the government approved distance away from you, as if you have
the plague…and then you remember: fuck, there is a plague, and I might have it.
And that’s why I’m not at work and walking the dog and the teenager to the park
to kick a rugby ball around at 2:30 in the afternoon.
Then there is
silent queueing outside the supermarket, with people wearing masks or scarves
wrapped round their mouths and leaning on the trolleys to look at their phones
as the line slowly shuffles forward and you move into the next zone marked in
yellow and black tape on the ground. This behavior, which wasn’t what you were
doing three weeks ago, is now the New Abnormal. And actually getting into the
supermarket feels like winning the lottery – ‘I’m in!’ Until you look at the
shelves, of course…
Choice is the New
Abnormal, too. Social isolation measures mean that you can’t choose to do hardly
any of the things you were doing before the pandemic, but less choice makes for
remarkably simple thought processes. I can walk the dog, go to the supermarket,
ride my bike. And that’s it. There are no other legitimate reasons to leave the
house. The day after the lockdown, I saw that B&Q were still open and went
down there to buy some screws for a garden project to be met by three members
of staff standing at the front of the store, wearing masks and gloves, waving cars
away, with a police car parked to one side. The New Abnormal: when nipping out for
some 75mm wood screws ends up with you being arrested for a non-essential journey.
The New Abnormal:
sitting in the garden with a cup of coffee thinking it’s a beautiful day when
thousands of people all over the world are dying of the same infectious disease; dropping a package on our
neighbour’s doorstep, ringing the doorbell and backing away as if it is a bomb
when it’s the milk they asked you to get them; opening the poo bin lid in the
park with your elbow; absent-mindedly scratching the skin on your finger until
you’ve broken the skin because actually your fear is lurking like a great white
shark under your tiny little raft. The shark was there from the beginning and
it’s all you could think about at first but you’ve been on the raft so long now
you’re started staring at the sky while the shadow follows along, waiting for
you to lose your grip.
Latest data for the UK (as of 11pm):
Infected: 29,474
Deaths: 2,352
Celebrity Deaths: 0 (Don’t die Michael Rosen – long live the meme king!)
People I know who are infected: 3 (my boss, my teaching assistant, and Sol’s mate)
Song of the Day: ‘Mad World’ – Tears for Fears
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